Heya guys...to day is Sunday.. and I'm on my bed lying down with a crepe bandage fastened in my heel...
ya.. a bit of bad news... It's Ligament Rapture... sounds horrible to me.. literally ... I mean.. lying down like I don't possess my left foot... aawww!!
So was thinking to utilise my lazy time and suddenly the idea came up.... to share something more with you all guys..
OK!! after that first loving and caring advice & specially the intended touch.. I was supposed to be on the seventh heaven.. I was but only for 5 minutes... Because as soon as She went back inside the house... Sir told us about her leaving the place forever... My heart sank.. suddenly I was on earth, maybe inside earth, from seventh heaven...
Well then what else I could do!! Anyhow the vacations got over.. I was silently trying to absorb the pain... sometimes trying to forget her.. maybe God didn't want me to be with her... sometimes I asked God... Why me? stupid question though... To confess... sometimes I did sobbed while everyone's asleep during night..
Then what.. school reopened... I was in class 10th but maybe not matured enough... don't know why I was not able to get rid of her in my mind.. never thought that it maybe just infatuation.. I loved going to school rather than staying back home... whenever alone her thoughts haunted me... everything about her.. her smile.. her style of interacting... Maybe I didn't deserve her...
With my friends (Anshul and Ankur) I searched for her...
Finally after toiling in sun for 15 long days of summer... I found her.. Maybe it was a blessing of Lord.. because its a mystery.. till yet..
After a couple of days later I found her number too... again courtesy to my friends... who believed in me & my love...
Gradually we became friends... now don't give such a big smile... though I'm myself smiling...
We used to talk over phone (landline because we were not privileged to have cellphones) .. to be true.. we became used to... ... felt something missing the day I cannot hear her voice... probably because I was in love... but did she felt the same...? There lies a BIG question mark.... I loved her... sometimes I felt she also feels the same.. but other way round it can just be a misinterpretation on my part.... days passed... winters set in... again vacations.. new years celebration was ahead.. there was only wish in my heart... I wanted to wish her New Year (2004)..
What does this New Year holds for me and my one-sided love?? I was hopeful... but never hoped that it will turn out to something that we never expected.....
Hold your breath... Will tell you soon...
till then.. good luck...
love you guys...
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