When Life is at its best....

Hi folks,

Its been almost a year when I posted something. Today, I'd like to tell you about my present situation, my present life.. my Today!!

I've completed four months working for a reputed KPO in Investment Banking team; for last three weeks I'm on the top of performance chart. Hell Yeah I'm really proud and I'm boasting and it does feels nice...

However as nothing lasts forever, I'm going to resign on 1st March. The adrenaline and rush of the life is gonna end to make way for something more better; that something been "Assistant Manager" in India's biggest bank; its really the BIGGEST in every term.
I am one of the 1331 candidates who are finally selected for this post. Ooooo yeah its does feels nice.. though there is always a feeling that bothers you when you try to abandon the past lifestyle...

Its time, when I should start continue my story from where I left it... I have motivation, in real terms this time as I'll try to devote more time.

Thanks to Vinti Rana, who threatened me to kill me if I don't continue my story... Well she recently got engaged to a very handsome Puneet Kumar. Congrats to you both... Have a sweet and happy married life ahead. God bless!!

Have motivation to write again...

Will be back after exams.. with lots of tales... about my life in Delhi... and ahead...

Its time... Maybe we should start again!!

Hey folks... I'm goin to continue the tale of my Journey called life soon...

I want to say....

I want to say I'm sorry for many reasons left unsaid,
I want to say I miss you and the life that we once led..
I want to be forgiven and forgive myself as well,
I want to hold my head up high and no longer sit and dwell..
How do you learn to love yourself after perfecting self-hate?
I want to shout ' I miss you so' yet knowing I'm too late,
So much time has already passed but one thing remains..
The thought of you brings warmth to me and that will never change...
We all make mistakes in life, Lord knows I've made a few,
Please know that doesn't change the fact I truly cared for you...
The love we shared may have been brief, and now it's just our past,
But the impact that you have left on me will forever last...
No matter where we go from here, no matter where we've been,
What I miss most of all, is not my lover, it's my best friend...

I'm trying...

I'm trying hard to make things better. Somewhere in my heart I know nothing can be well now, I knew it very well about the future in the very beginning. I know who I am, What I deserve and what I don't deserve. Still I tried to get what I won't be able to desrve in my life inspite of all the hardships in achieving it I went careless and Lost it forever, yes forever and thats a bitter truth, like shit, I can't swallow all this situation.
I'm going to give up, in future I think so, because inside I have a feeling that tells me... Ashu, Back off... You won't make it better, you have to move alone.
I'm confused... I need to feel numb and number... till I feel it no more... regret, guilt...
Its true.. I too feel, I shouldn't have done that wrong to her six years back.. She deserved more, she always did..
I'm responsible for all this shit in which I am in today. I'm selfish, very selfish... I think.. I hate myself for this... will do so till the end...

Happy Independence day...

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY....

I'm proud to be Indian. I'll always be. It's true that we are in trouble due to the ground reality of corruption but still.. Its not the fault of our motherland... its because of some greedy people..
Gandhiji once said, "The earth has enough for everyone's need but very less for one man's greed"
Being the proud citizen of India, I vow to be a good citizen till my last breath.
What about you?

I Miss you

I want to hold your hand and walk a mile,

don't want to miss you, even for a while,

My life is so beautiful,

Coz dear you are my Life.

Hug me so that my worries could die,

my tears to dry

and my lonliness to fly,

I've been so selfish in the recent past,

however my love for would never last,

You felt ignored and that I don't care,

inspite being with u, I was not there,

but baby, I looked out the taxi to know the route,

in order to avoid any problems ahead.

Maybe this is the way I care.

I'm getting sentimental over you,

even if I try I cannot move,

So I decided to put things back,

to tell you its not you but its me who lacked.

I miss you every moment of the day,

I keep myself awake to listen to you,

I keep myself empty just for you to fill,

I keep myself alive just to see you.

fear of furture is worse than the pain of the past,

still I bother least, coz I know you are there.

even seconds are long to miss you,

I can't tell you what it really is,
I can only tell you what it feels like,
And right now it's a steel knife in my windpipe,
I can't breathe but I still fight till I can fight,
I've a ray of hope,

In this dark its enough to bring back light.

I just want to hold your hand and walk a mile,

don't want to miss you, even for a while....

Love you... forever...