LOVE... FRIENDS... LOVE.. continues...

Heya guys...to day is Sunday.. and I'm on my bed lying down with a crepe bandage fastened in my heel...
ya.. a bit of bad news... It's Ligament Rapture... sounds horrible to me.. literally ... I mean.. lying down like I don't possess my left foot... aawww!!
So was thinking to utilise my lazy time and suddenly the idea came up.... to share something more with you all guys..
OK!! after that first loving and caring advice & specially the intended touch.. I was supposed to be on the seventh heaven.. I was but only for 5 minutes... Because as soon as She went back inside the house... Sir told us about her leaving the place forever... My heart sank.. suddenly I was on earth, maybe inside earth, from seventh heaven...
Well then what else I could do!! Anyhow the vacations got over.. I was silently trying to absorb the pain... sometimes trying to forget her.. maybe God didn't want me to be with her... sometimes I asked God... Why me? stupid question though... To confess... sometimes I did sobbed while everyone's asleep during night..
Then what.. school reopened... I was in class 10th but maybe not matured enough... don't know why I was not able to get rid of her in my mind.. never thought that it maybe just infatuation.. I loved going to school rather than staying back home... whenever alone her thoughts haunted me... everything about her.. her smile.. her style of interacting... Maybe I didn't deserve her...
With my friends (Anshul and Ankur) I searched for her...
Finally after toiling in sun for 15 long days of summer... I found her.. Maybe it was a blessing of Lord.. because its a mystery.. till yet..
After a couple of days later I found her number too... again courtesy to my friends... who believed in me & my love...
Gradually we became friends... now don't give such a big smile... though I'm myself smiling...
We used to talk over phone (landline because we were not privileged to have cellphones) .. to be true.. we became used to... ... felt something missing the day I cannot hear her voice... probably because I was in love... but did she felt the same...? There lies a BIG question mark.... I loved her... sometimes I felt she also feels the same.. but other way round it can just be a misinterpretation on my part.... days passed... winters set in... again vacations.. new years celebration was ahead.. there was only wish in my heart... I wanted to wish her New Year (2004)..
What does this New Year holds for me and my one-sided love?? I was hopeful... but never hoped that it will turn out to something that we never expected.....
Hold your breath... Will tell you soon...
till then.. good luck...
love you guys...

So.. back again..LOVE...FRIENDS... LOVE.. continues..

Last time I told you about.... HER... leaving for some other place to reside.....And first thing to be done according to the so called great plan was to become a friend of her.. here I was not eligible for her friendship till yet...
So the thing was... how to START.... the mission...(Mind you there was no possibility of "7 din ladki In")

Yes.. I forgot to mention something... the first caring advice (after first electric shock & before first emotional dilemma) I ever got from her..
Get back a bit.. She's still in Jhunsi (preparing to shift but till yet I was unknown) this time the month was May & the day was Saturday Morning 8:15am...
I joined Maths tution classes.. which was just next to HER house (you got it.. it was not by chance that I joined Maths classes in the house next to hers). Our classes were scheduled at 8 am. We (I & Mohit) were on time as vacations were on.. A day before I got an electric shock while fiddling with wire that left me with a tiny cavity in my first finger of right hand..(its still here, I can feel it)
So we were in with our tutor in his Drawing room.. I as always was wishing to have a glimpse of her before going back to my house.. was unable to write but was still present and was quite happy because it was weekend and probability of having a glimpse was good...
I narrated the incident of electric shock to Mohit... who forwarded it to our tutor in more pain expressing way... My god.. He was feeling more pain than me.. Sir saw my finger and asked why I came to study in such a situation... I gave him a wonderful reason, "Sir, I love trigonometry thats why I'm here."
He was impressed... went inside and called his mother and proudly presented me and my dedication for study.. then she went inside and someone else came out with Sir this time...this time it was SHE ( since HER family had family terms with the tutors family & she was inside with our teacher's parents).. Yes at 8 in the morning..
She came to see the studious dude..  Well whatever.. It was good to see her...
For the first time she held my hand.. I wished if I could get such electric shocks everyday...
She advised me to not to fiddle with wires again... & the fact is... till now I'm really afraid of electricity...lolss
Then again as Tails accompanies Heads in a coin...
I received an unwilling shock... That day was the last day I was having her glimpse in Jhunsi.... She was there to bid goodbye to her neighbours...
aaaahhh!!! that was painful.... but maybe that was a plan of The Almighty.. some twists and twirls in my love story....
Well now the life of my love story starts... the quest.. the breakthrough ... the friendship... everything awaits now...

To those whom I've hurt..

Hello guys...
Whats up with you all ??
Hope you all to be fine and in good health with the grace of the almighty...
Well The almighty is a bit upset with me... possibly due to the evil doings of mine... Well Lord.. this is how you made me... or maybe this is how I changed myself into a evil kinda attitude  person... Sometimes I upset myself too with my attitude.. I hurt people.. many a times.. its not that I derive fun out of that.. No! It's because I'm not able to absorb the environment completely.. or my habit of tit for tat not working properly... I'm rude to my collegeues sometimes.. that way I hurt them... and grow more enemies.. but what about those who drive me to this... YES! I'm driven by my aggression which is not at all good.. not for my personal life neither for my professional life.. Trying hard to calm down my senses.. Well its not only me in this damn world who's stressed.. but maybe the way I carry stress is not good..
Basically this post is dedicated to my friends & collegeues... whom I've hurt.. like Rahul Gupta... I should have not said that to him... Well sorry guys... Hope you'll forget what happened and try to forgive me.....
See ya all in class......
Good luck
Pendre Soin (Take Care)...

Some light moments shared in Busy schedule of Endeavour 2010

Trying to give killing looks... lolss

Me with anshuman....

Wanna know about the Deal???

When in love... just keep on loving...

"If you aren't good at loving yourself, you will have a difficult time loving anyone, since you'll resent the time and energy you give another person that you aren't even giving to yourself."

Its true. This is what I felt till yet by looking around me specially my close friends...

We always make couple of unknown mistakes in our love lives... Later we repent over it...

We just keep on wishing, "If I would have done it in other way..." The person who can't love and respect themselves.. can they prove to be good loving and respecting partners..????

(All this real crap applies to all of us who are in love & complain, without gender discrimination...)

At the initial stage.. We do all that things we don't do normally just in order to impress the special one... Then after we are successful and our love-life begins, gradually we forget about doing same extraordinary things... Now we seem to be careless... I don't understand one thing... to carry on a successful love-life do we need to be Extraordinary forever...??? 

In the beginning we follow some quotation like "Love is like a bird, don't hold it hard or it'll die.. just leave it free, if it comes back it's your's or else it was never meant to be your's."

What the F**K!! Who said this... Bring him on and ask him/her did he/she ever do so??

Possessiveness sets in..& it has to set in... no one can avoid it... Some say its bad to be possessive... May I know why is it so? It's totally illogical to be not possessive at all... but yes extreme must be avoided..

It's basic human nature to expect things in return... Everyone does.. and there is no harm in doing so.. till you don't feel hurt when your expectations are not fulfilled... 

Some probable lunatic said, "True love means giving up all Expectations"

It should be like,"True one-sided love means giving up all expectation" because expecting in one-sided love is like been in love with the wall and trying to hug it...lolzzz

Whosoever doesn't expects is practically not in love... If I'm true to my love.. I'll expect her to be true to me...

But if I'm a infidel... then how can I complain when she turns out to be the same or how can I expect her to be faithful to me??? Isn't their anything known as conscience??

Well this is too much of ugly business of love guru which i did...

Well friends its all what I felt... nothing personal... 

N yes.. to my girl.. Thank you for making me feel special...and top of the world.. Without you I would've never ever learned about how to love... like just love... nothing more nothing less... Love ya sweetheart...

Endeavour 2010.. comes to an End...

Good... It went great... We all toiled hard for this..... The fest "ENDEAVOUR 2010"... Was a Success.. Almost 10 colleges participated and more than hundreds of students turned up....
Well got some lessons also...
I'm free from today onwards, IF I get time from studies since our internals are round the corner and this time I want to give serious efforts to them..
So friends keep in touch
and do tell me what should I scribble onwards... ok... Well m looking forward for an opportunity to write something tonight itself... but the mechanism in my brain is not cooperating with eyes as they are quite tired ...
still will write something soon...

Some pics of Home surroundings

front view..from the roof of my house

My shweet doggie... Her name's Jinni or Chiddi

Busy managing Endeavour...

Yup Endeavour is the college fest in which I'm playing one of the crucial role. I'm quite busy in the activities as I'm leading 'Business Plan' committee and at the end of the day I'm too tired to scribble...its today that I got an opportunity to write something...Meanwhile I went to home as you all know.. Visited Agra..met with an accident which lead to realisations...then went to Allahabad and after Six lovely days I'm back with enthusiasm and vigour....not just meeting both ends...instead working quite good and efficiently....the feeling of giving up is gone.... I could say that.. Home is a place not only of strong affections, but of entire unreserve; it is life's undress rehearsal, its backroom, its dressing room...

Had very good time.... will tell u whole story later... someday....oneday...

have a good time... 

pendre soin....